Stop Crawling
If you have wings, you should fly.
I already expect that whenever I type something, I’m going to get served up related content on socials and in ads. And I know my phone is always listening, so I know that’s going to happen with whatever I talk about, too.
What I don’t really understand and am frankly not too keen on is how my phone can read my thoughts. Sometimes I think about something and then it pops up, even though I never told anyone or said anything out lout at any point.
Case in point: Last week, I was thinking about how I haven’t seen any videos lately from my favorite tarot reading creator, KC Steinbeck. Then, bam. He starts filling up my feed again. I currently have three videos sitting in my inbox that I want to revisit.1
Yes, I like tarot readings.
I’m sure I’ve said this before, but I can be a little woo. I think you wouldn’t necessarily know that about me depending on how you know me, but it’s true.
I believe in the forces of the universe being able to communicate through some magical souls, allowing them to pick out cards and deliver a message to me. And I believe that the message, even when it’s generic and vague, is directly intended for me. Except for the parts that aren’t, of course, which I can pick out and ignore.
For some reason, this guy resonates with me. He reassures me that Source2 is guiding me to all that I’m meant to receive. He explains about the moons and planets and houses and all that, but it’s too much to rememer so I don’t even try anymore. But it does make sense.
No one told me I entered my butterfly era.
But I guess I did, apparently. I did the hard work of being a caterpillar, making a cocoon, staying inside while I transformed down into goo, just to reform as a butterfly.
I’ve healed. I’ve been building myself and all the good shit the universe has always known I could build. I’ve grown beyond the people and things that no longer serve me or were never right for me in the first place. I know where I don’t belong, and I do what I can to stay out of those places.
But still I crawl.
KC told me that the cards said that even though I’ve done all this work and I have the tools and strength to be my most amazing, I’m still crawling around like a caterpillar because I’m not using my wings. (Somehow he knew I was in my butterfly era?)
For whatever reason (probably fear, because isn’t it always fear?), I did all this growing and changing and expected that to be enough to make the success roll in. Now, I need to use the wings I have and be the butterfly.
What was the point of changing and growing and learning and going through so much if all I’m going to do is the same stuff I always did? I could have just stayed the way I was if that’s all I was planning to do with my life.
And here’s the best part.
A couple weeks ago, I figured out how to make my new, as-yet unlaunched business work. Something never felt right with it, and I thought I was procrastinating but that uncertainty wasn’t really fear so much as it was that it wasn’t right. But then one day it clicked, and I know what I’m going to do and it’s coming together. This thing is moving.
I can’t wait to tell you more about it, but this post is already long, and plus we’re talking about something else.
Anyway, in the time leading up to that breakthrough, I’m like why is nothing working? Why, no matter how hard I try, is nothing working. And the reason, it hit me, is that I was only doing things I’d done before. I was still crawling.
When I thought differently, I got new results. When I started talking differently, I got more results. Since I’ve changed my energy and vibe a bit, even more results.
And then KC dipped into my algorithm to tell me the thing that I was only just able to understand. Finally, I was ready to hear it. From the universe or whatever, the message found it’s way to me in the moment I needed it.
What’s your takeaway?
Start relying on tarot and/or Instagram creators? I mean, you can. But I think it’s more that if you’ve gone through significant changes and you’re still not where you want to be, are you actually using all the tools you have? Are you acting as the higher self you are now rather than who you were before you started changing?
We have to adapt and change our tactics after we grow, or we stay stuck.
Don’t keep crawling because it’s what you’ve always done. When you can fly, fly.
Thank you.
Maybe it’s the universe that sent you to me or to this Substack. Whatever the reason you’re here, I’m grateful, always. Your support means it all.
I got major deja vu on this, so if you’ve read this before, I apologize. I always feel like that melting face emoji lately. Shrug.
Idk what Source is, but it’s what he always says. Sounds good. Works for me.